┼פ[A shout in to nothing]¤×┼

Once again i start to get a little concious of my chaos, so i go to my inner shadow to heal some wounds and to bleed till death,at least a part of me, living has an enormous cost, sometimes the lifes of others, and with their departure a part of my life is taken away, so i keep on dying to breath at the next day.

I've been so busy in this sad sick world, activism, cyberactivism, work, all that i do every day, all my beliefs that seems to be pointless at many times, people just don't care about their own kind, how can i expect that them care about another race, even about this world, this planet...

It's a week since my beloved girl lefted this fucking world, and i can't stand her absens, i cry at the emptiness of her room... her smell has finally faded away... her mate is the most afected, he just lay outside her room all time, her daughter cries a little now and then, her son run into her room to give her toys, or flowers or something, he forget that she's not there anymore, and then go out with his face down... none of them even try to enter at her room, not even when the rain falls... my pack lost a member, and we all miss her so much, that our tears can't dry, in this very moment they're runing on my face...

I got a little sick on this past days, i was on a bussiness trip along with some people from the company where i work as designer, i don't talk about it much in here, and don't talk about the things i do or write in here at work, but just to clear it, i work at an advertising agency, i've a graphic designer degree after all...

But well, i got sick of the people, we had to share a big amount of time so they now know more about me, for example that i am vegan, a proanimal rights, and more goth that they tough :P, they had the opportunity to see my 'real' presence, not the -casual- one i have the tendence to show at work (almost no make-up, jeans, lame t-shirt to put on the lame uniform shirt...), of course they don't even understand what a vegan is, and they even laugh and tried to anger me or something like that each time they eated meat (they even take me to a "butcher's house restaurant" called Angus), i had an awesome dessert (flamed strawberries with chocolate, strawberri liquor and ron)  when they were eating corpses. When we went to the Banamex Center to the expo one of them said "who cares park there" pointing to a handicapped parking space ¬¬ what an asshole ignorant dumb bitch, i just said loud and clear "don't even think so"... and more things like that... i can't stand people, i'm happy with my animal friends i had the fortune to meet an awesome and cute pup, one swiss german sheppard, what a lovely white wolfy... but he reminded me my Cammy so much, he was frigthened at first but then he was waging his tail and licking me, he's a sweet heart, i hope to see him again, big, strong, healty and more important happy, he's at my boss house now...

aah... yeah, the art part... i haven't uploaded anything in months... or years? i've been making a lot of paintings, but i destroyed them again, deleted the digital ones... trowing away others... but i've so many ongoing i hope to finish one or more soon to start to get "at day" again... anyway, i think this is all for the moment, so farewell, till the next crossing path